My status changed today. For the last three (ish) years I’ve been telling people I’m ‘unemployed’: and perhaps it’s all been in my own head (what is it the psychoquacks call it? Transference? Reflection? Something like that). Maybe I’ve been mistaken, but I’ve detected a tendency on the part of some to treat me differently from they way they did when I was last gainfully employed. The obvious ones are those who make the wisecracks about "sponging" – perhaps in honest jest, but any joke wears thin after the tenth telling.
Less obvious – and perhaps more mere figments of the imagination – are those who seem to discount my point of view simply because they’re paying tax, and I’m currently not (no consideration for the god – and of course the inland revenue – knows how much tax I’ve paid to date throughout my working life).
Quite probably paranoia, all in my own head. As Slartibartfast said: perfectly normal, everyone gets that.
What’s changed today is that I’ve set up a website to promote a service I’ve been thinking about offering for some time now. Yes, I really should have done something about it much earlier, but what’s done is done, water under the bridge, c’est la vie.
So as of today – I’m no longer ‘unemployed’: I’m now ‘self-employed’. Even though the new business hasn’t paid a bean, as yet. And I’m really not doing any more or less than I have been for a while now. Such a simple thing, and yet such a difference.
So much depends on the way we perceive things. Peculiar thing, consciousness.
… ah, I suppose I should pimp the website I refer to above